WRESTLING WITH UNCERTAINTY

Posted on May 2, 2014

Are You Wrestling with Uncertainties? 

Testimonial:

“I do not want to die young or alone, an unfulfilled penniless life …”

Bombarded with the probability of a sudden shortened lifespan, a lonely, unproductive, or worthless life; the attacks came against my will and desire to see life through to fruition. “This is not godly thinking,” I thought as I attempted to reach out to anyone in my life, i.e. friends, family, loved ones, or other support means to help me to sort through the confusion.

I had begun to give up after immobility issues, financial disparities, absence of social life. I went online and typed, “What’s the best way to commit suicide” it took me to a site that instead of assisting me on how to do so, had lots of material of support on why not to.

As I began to read the text and attached scriptures, I was easily brought back to my spiritual senses. These are reasons I reached a low: Everything I seemed to try to be successful at, seemed to in its end stage, fall apart or away. I was losing my dad, my man wasn’t my man, my educational endeavors came to a screeching halt as did my health care coverage shortly after new diagnoses; I had no more income, business plummeted, my son was on trial for a capital crime, my body and bones weakened, my teeth were breaking away…more.

• No luck with finding a cure or at least a working remedy for the constant agonizing pains associated with my disorder(s)
• No zest for life; unable to get around like once before, no means to travel freely as I once did
• Vision impairments kept me struggling with reading, so home life became a bore
• No happy state of being (moody, over sensitive), sedative (due medication side effects), or combative (hating to explain what I was going through all the time)

I had so many things attacking me all at once that the uncertainty of SUCCESS in/at anything was prevalent under the darkness of these attacks. The thing was that my life was spiritually unaligned with my faith. I knew God, and I knew faith but I was not exercising it.

After a talk with God, this was revealed, “You can’t have faith without belief and strong confidence, it is stupid to think that suicide is an answer, I write the life script, and you perform the role until curtain time”

1 Timothy 6 | Mark 15:38 | Luke 23:45 | Exodus 26:33 | Job 22:14 | Hebrews 6:19-20, 10:19-25 | Leviticus 16:2

WHAT ARE THE ROLES WE PLAY?

• Sometimes those roles were dramatic, adventurous, action-filled, romantic, horrific (or rated R)
• Sometimes the genres of these roles were lucrative, productive, melodic, poetic, comedic, scientific, religious, etc.
• In addition, they were opposite at other times.

I had the script (the Holy Bible) on how to please God in my faithful performance, but was too busy repeatedly rehearsing them rather than performing the ACTS (Work of FAITH).

You see, HE assured me that because I love HIM and as long as I follow HIS instruction, all things would have a good and expected outcome; that He would always be there to direct my performance of the predestined role(s) I would play in the melodramatic renaissance of LIFE ~Living In Faith Everyday.

The problem is that I just as others do in uncertainty of the role we have been given by God is often trying to be the director, do much improvisation or ad-libbing, instead of keeping to the script of our lives as written by God via Jesus Christ crucifixion & resurrection. ~ [Author & Finisher of our Faith].

“Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God” (Hebrews 12:2 KJV).

We get cocky & try to take the lead and before long, we are displaced from the role. We then enter periods of chastisement via the trying of our faith until we get it together, know our lines and precepts and ultimately we learn and begin to follow HIS lead.

[Romans 8:28 |Jeremiah 1:12 & 29:11| 1 Corinthians 2:9 |Hebrews 13:56 |1 Peter 1:7 |James 1:3-4 |1 Peter 4:8, more]

THE UNCERTAINTIES IN LIFE… exist in numerous forms but are most often or always the source of negating spiritual energy or sources. People often become bogged down via uncertainty with health, finance, relationships, employment, and other people. Let us explore this:

• Perhaps the doctor gave you a negative report…
• Perhaps your money issues or credit rating shows a downslope…
• Perhaps your relationship(s) seem empty or biased…
• Perhaps your job seems unproductive…
• Perhaps other people never see well or speak good of you…

Well, uncertainty fuels lack in your confidence level(s) to align with it, rather than fighting it through assuring confidence of faith and the sufficiency of God’s grace. FAITH allows you to…

• think on the brighter side of things, thus re-aligning the report and the visibility becomes evident in the unseen
• you can better assess whether the job is working for or against you and/or vice versa
• you began to accept the image that you were created in, learning to love who and whose you are
• you become familiar with the role you were cast

Psalm 40:2 | Isaiah 64:8 | Jeremiah 18:6 | 1 Peter 1:7

“Forasmuch as thou saw that the stone was cut out of the mountain without hands, and that it brake in pieces the iron, the brass, the clay, the silver, and the gold; the great God hath made known to the king what shall come to pass hereafter: and the dream is certain, and the interpretation thereof sure”

(Daniel 2:45 KJV)

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YOU WERE BOUGHT WITH A PRICE!

“For by him were all things created, that are in heaven, and that are in earth, visible and invisible, whether they be thrones, or dominions, or principalities, or powers: all things were created by him, and for him:”

(Colossians 1:16 KJV)

“Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things”

(Philippians 4:8 KJV).

“Whom resist steadfast in the faith, knowing that the same afflictions are accomplished in your brethren that are in the world. But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, establish, strengthen, settle you. To him be glory and dominion forever and ever. Amen”

(1 Peter 5:9-11 KJV).